good buy to an old friend:
i wrote my friend to tell her that i was not comeing upstate on my birthday and to let her know that she hurt my feelings when she came down to visit and pick up a free computer from Sasha.....
this is what i wrote:
well i hope the concert was great. thanks for the hate mail. i have been very busy and very sick the past few days. i got sick on my birthday. though dinner was a smash i got sick and for the past few days, i have had a fever and dhiarrea. so what i wanted to say, was i was very dissapointed when you came down. disharted none the less. i have not seen you in a very long time and it just proved to me that the computer was more important than seeing me. from the moment you got here to the time you left, all you could talk about was getting home because chulia needed to be fed and you had laundy. what struck me as odd was paul had food, if she needed to be fed more than 2 times a day (which you have never done in the past) she could have waited a few hours without starving to death because she is on a diet to begin with. i can see you getting ancy about getting home, but saturday night as we were sitting drinking wine chilling out thats all you were talking about, so you can see why i was upset. so, in the future, if you ever leave that far off place to come down here again, take the time to come down and spend it with your friend and not do a quick run and make a bunch of excuses to leave abruptly. it hurt. and take note that i do come up there all the time. its not often that i get a visit from anyone down here, and more often i have to drive up there even on my birthday, so this year i am putting my foot down and saying enough is enough. i am not going to be here next year or the next and god knows how many times i have had to come up there for everyone elses.i am being selfish for once and it feels really good and i hope everyone actually hears me this time. enough is enough. well have fun and i hope you understand that i have been sick and busy but i am not coming up. i will not be here next week. i am going down to the hapmtons to spend a long weekend with Pat and star while sasha is away. have fun with the concert and know i love you. love melanie love melanie
she wrote:
What fucking concert did i go too. Great...you don't fucking listen half the time either. I came too you and didn't go to the concert..... & i've been very sick the last 4 days.......before i even read past the first 2 sentences.......i have to say RE-EVALUATE yourself Mel. I just talked to your fucking mom.....basically i told her to piss on herself and you can piss off too! Don't like it that i express my concerns about over spending myself!!! You know........try living i my shoe Melanie cause you have it pretty easy living off of Sasha! No this is not HATE mail......Its WAKE THE FUCK UP MAIL. Sweet Mel gets to spend her $$ frivously with no worries - No car pmts, no big bill. Guess what MEL....I'm thinking about buying a house too! I feel like maturing and taking the next step.....& no i do not spend $$ frivously every chance i get! I have things i need - a home, a good RELIABLE car under warrenty because i drive ALOT 2500 miles in 1 month & food, used clothing & chula gets fed and i pay my bills. What do you do??? Hahhhh. Oh life just sucks for you doesn't it! Fuck you and fuck your mother too! Laura
and.....also
reply # 2.......I came down for the computer MEL!!!! My trip was for the computer. That is why i made the trip. What the fuck Mel! I took you out ....spent $50 on lunch for you b-day and $15 for breakfast. AND $15 for a bottle of wine & no i did not have the $$$ to do that but i did anyway - didn't i! I had a great time with you - I thought & we did quite a bit together. AGAIN Mel......Tell me you need me to come and i will.......but dont expect me to read minds.....cause aparently you think i can! You were supposed to come up the following weekend anyway....untill you cancelled...and that is supposed to be my fault! What more do you want. You need to not freak out all the time! Lighten up! Now i'm REALLY fuckin pissed and SICK too....I have had suvere diarehha today...and cold.allergies the last 4 days....so everyone can piss off! Laura
and.........also
Own a dog on your own and you'll understand. It's like being a single mother. You can't just pawn your child off on ppl every time something comes up Mel. THINK....Your fucking 30 years old. Why can't you get it. Working late and living alone ...is also an issue! Now...at this rate.....don't expect me to ever come see you. Again, think before you shit out of your mouth Mel. L
and...............again also
Yeah i love you too......but i am extremely pissed now at you and you mother. L
and............then she writes to my father? why?
Hey Tom - Sorry but.....i need you to tell your wife to think first, then talk. Melanie definatly gets that from Monica......that's for sure.. Monica really did it this time. Telling me that she and many others (who does she know that i know...Betty and Mel????) are sick of hearing me say i am struggling with $$....well the truth is I AM and will, until i find a happy medium. I am now thinking of buying a 2 faimily home in the future that will pay for itself. And i will do it all by my self. Yeah....It's hard but i am trying to move forward in my life.....and take mature risks to better my future. KEY....and i am doing it on my own ....a girl no less. Mel gets to live off Sasha and buy alot of un-neccissary thinks because she is living the easy life now. What the heck Tom! I could have told your wife that i am sick and tired of hearing her complain all the time about how tired and depressed she is......but i don't EVER. Now i guess you can tell her i said that. Laura
and......................once again
Between You, your mom, Tetje, Tim, Albert, my mom..& Everyone....you ALL have pretty much Pushed me to my limit. Too much has gone on this month for me....alot of running around i can't take anymore. Everyone is selfish and fucked up! I am maxed out and i can not take any more shit from anyone. It true and pure CAOS!!!! My MSN weekly horoscope warned me of exactly this - Laura 6/20/74...if you want to confirm. Everyone needs to calm the fuck down. ALOT is happening ...ALOT...at work. Major transitions & GREAT ones, but ALOT is happening. I'm DONE & i need to keep focused on work. Mel...Sorry for the PISSED off e-mail but it was to be expected. Laura
and......................
If Sasha has caused this with CRAP that he's planted in your head for some reason.....I will fucking kill him! He has been wonderful to me but why? He fucks you up so badly. He has changed you for the worse by saying mean things to you. What did he or whomever plant in your head. OR was it your Clinically depressed mom? Great...Your depressed...talking about you problems to you depressed mom. Great. Again......CAOS! Laura
and......................
By the way...you came up here 2 times this year for just me. 1 for my b-day...and you still stayed at your parents...& 2 for when i asked you to come because i was upset. All the other times you were here for your family....and some of it was for me. Think about that Mel. You DON'T come up here for just me. L
and..........................
yeah right Mel. Thanks alot....back at you. Most of the time you only hear 1/2 of what is said...only what you want to hear. I came down right?.....and i thought we had a great time. Didn't we do alot? Yeah 7 e-mails.....the one to your dad was copied to you as well. First of all your mom made a comment to me when i went to pick up your dads computer, out of the blue, on "why she thinks i should live in a better cheaper place...and she said it in a mean way." Then she says that shit to me yesterday when she called. About everyone being sick of hearing about my financial problems. Who is everyone Mel? She wouldn't say. Aparently you've been bitching about me to your Mom then. So she put her two sense in. Now wonder i flipped out & sorry i e-mailed you dad...I shouldn't have. I was hoping he would tell your mom to mind her business and let us deal with it. Everyone is depressed and everyone has a situation. That is true. You spring on me when i was there that you were depressed again. AGAIN...if you asked me to come down because you needed me - then the trip would have been specifically for you, but it wasn't - sorry you took it to heart. Remember When you got into a fight with Sasha and your car broke down. I was gonna come get you 2/12 hours away...no doubt & i would have drove you back tool if i had to. Chill out. As for me asking those questions. i didn't think i was gonna get in trouble for asking. You know my situation cause you are my friend. You don't tell me much anyway unless i pry it out of you half the time. How do you expect me to react given the situation. You and your mom saying your sick of me. Hahh????? Of course, i am gonna get Pissed and mother Fuck everyone. It wasn't your moms place. As for jealous.....no fucking way....not of you. I would never want to be in your shoes Mel. yeah, pay bills but small as you said. You have money to blow...I don't extra $$ and haven't for years. and occasionally, when i do treat myself or splurge....i put myself back again. Yes, in another year or so i would like to reorganize my budget and my commission draw to allow me to start saving for a down payment for my own house. Sorry if you do not approve. I think that is a bit more important than anything else right now. As for Tim....as i told you we are not together...we are just friend...and my focus is me & my job. I ultimately need to be single in order to do that. I have been self taught and struggling for my independence for as long as i've known too. Sorry i have supposed friends that don't want to tolerate me. Sorry you don't approve of my love life. Well i don't approve of yours either. Truthfully, i hope you find happiness living with yourself Mel. Thanks alot back at you and good riddens. As you said As for me Whining......truthfully.....after all the running i've been doing funeral etc, etc.. i was planning on being emobile for once that weekend. But i had the opportunity....thanks to Sasha, to get a new computer. So i made the trip. Sorry you don't approve.....& love this part of your E-mail Mel..."DONT CALL ME DONT THINK OF ME I DONT EXSIST TO YOU ANYMORE-"....suit yourself! Laura
then I finally wrote back to her:
well, 7 e-mails in one sitting - i am impressed. you have a lot stored up in there. the one thing you did not do right was think through it first before you acted. in the process of blowing up and going absolutly insane you have brought to light for so many months why you have asked so many questions of "do you pay any bills melanie" (you can say this in a lauria sneekly voice when you read it back to yourself). how much money do you make a month? what is your take home pay? you were setting me up because you are so jellious of something that wasnt there- your own problems. - one thing you left out to yourself and my father - (which i will speak to you in a minute about ) as i told you, i do pay bills here. the other thing- YOU GOT MY FATHER INVOLVED. YOU WERE TOTALLY OVER THE LINE ON THAT ONE. you sent him an e-mail about my mother and me- when you should have addressed us personally- that was a stupid move on your part. and do you actually think my father cares about your little indeaver about your future house idea- what is Tim going to live upstars and All on the lower lever so when you change your mind as often as you do in your life about decisions and growth in your life they will be there for you. now the point i want to make is this, in the letter i sent to you - you never once talked about the real issue of your whinning trip you were on, set aside what you wanted me to believe, the dog the launry...what ever.....you still were not here, and that you only came down for the computer. so - youve showed me very little there. well after the fact that you sent 7 very mean and hurtful e-mails saying Fuck you fuck you, you dont pay your bills, writing my father, and acting like my FUCKING BOYFRIEND back the fuck off lauria, DONT CALL ME DONT THINK OF ME I DONT EXSIST TO YOU ANYMORE-
and..................
Oh and this part of your letter to me: in the process of blowing up and going absolutly insane you have brought to light for so many months why you have asked so mnay questions of "do you pay any bills melanie" (you can say this in a lauria sneekly voice when you read it back to yourself). how much money do you make a month? what is your take home pay? you were setting me up because you are so jellious of something that wasnt there- your own problems. - one thing you left out to yourself and my father - (which i will speak to you in a minute about ) as i told you, i do pay bills here. MONTHS Mel! Over exageration totally. I just asked you that ONCE Mel, ONCE..... while we were walking in Nyack last weekend. I NEVER asked you that before stop making up stories... & Setting you up??? No fucking way...I was just curious how you had so much extra money. Two ppl is always easier then one though Melanie. You said your self you couldn't afford living on your own. How the hell do you think i feel? I AM on my own and drive 3/4s of the time! What the fuck Mel. Sorry you don't wanna hear my shit. What good of a friend ARE you then, hahh? i guess not one at all! Just keep this in mind Melanie.......YOU started this....so now i think you will need to fix it. I'm done with it all too. My focus is me! L
~lets just say i had to block sender by this time....was she really listening to anything?
well, I no longer have a best friend or a second Boyfriend, and believe it or not, I dont feel so bad anymore, in fact I am OK with it.
i wrote my friend to tell her that i was not comeing upstate on my birthday and to let her know that she hurt my feelings when she came down to visit and pick up a free computer from Sasha.....
this is what i wrote:
well i hope the concert was great. thanks for the hate mail. i have been very busy and very sick the past few days. i got sick on my birthday. though dinner was a smash i got sick and for the past few days, i have had a fever and dhiarrea. so what i wanted to say, was i was very dissapointed when you came down. disharted none the less. i have not seen you in a very long time and it just proved to me that the computer was more important than seeing me. from the moment you got here to the time you left, all you could talk about was getting home because chulia needed to be fed and you had laundy. what struck me as odd was paul had food, if she needed to be fed more than 2 times a day (which you have never done in the past) she could have waited a few hours without starving to death because she is on a diet to begin with. i can see you getting ancy about getting home, but saturday night as we were sitting drinking wine chilling out thats all you were talking about, so you can see why i was upset. so, in the future, if you ever leave that far off place to come down here again, take the time to come down and spend it with your friend and not do a quick run and make a bunch of excuses to leave abruptly. it hurt. and take note that i do come up there all the time. its not often that i get a visit from anyone down here, and more often i have to drive up there even on my birthday, so this year i am putting my foot down and saying enough is enough. i am not going to be here next year or the next and god knows how many times i have had to come up there for everyone elses.i am being selfish for once and it feels really good and i hope everyone actually hears me this time. enough is enough. well have fun and i hope you understand that i have been sick and busy but i am not coming up. i will not be here next week. i am going down to the hapmtons to spend a long weekend with Pat and star while sasha is away. have fun with the concert and know i love you. love melanie love melanie
she wrote:
What fucking concert did i go too. Great...you don't fucking listen half the time either. I came too you and didn't go to the concert..... & i've been very sick the last 4 days.......before i even read past the first 2 sentences.......i have to say RE-EVALUATE yourself Mel. I just talked to your fucking mom.....basically i told her to piss on herself and you can piss off too! Don't like it that i express my concerns about over spending myself!!! You know........try living i my shoe Melanie cause you have it pretty easy living off of Sasha! No this is not HATE mail......Its WAKE THE FUCK UP MAIL. Sweet Mel gets to spend her $$ frivously with no worries - No car pmts, no big bill. Guess what MEL....I'm thinking about buying a house too! I feel like maturing and taking the next step.....& no i do not spend $$ frivously every chance i get! I have things i need - a home, a good RELIABLE car under warrenty because i drive ALOT 2500 miles in 1 month & food, used clothing & chula gets fed and i pay my bills. What do you do??? Hahhhh. Oh life just sucks for you doesn't it! Fuck you and fuck your mother too! Laura
and.....also
reply # 2.......I came down for the computer MEL!!!! My trip was for the computer. That is why i made the trip. What the fuck Mel! I took you out ....spent $50 on lunch for you b-day and $15 for breakfast. AND $15 for a bottle of wine & no i did not have the $$$ to do that but i did anyway - didn't i! I had a great time with you - I thought & we did quite a bit together. AGAIN Mel......Tell me you need me to come and i will.......but dont expect me to read minds.....cause aparently you think i can! You were supposed to come up the following weekend anyway....untill you cancelled...and that is supposed to be my fault! What more do you want. You need to not freak out all the time! Lighten up! Now i'm REALLY fuckin pissed and SICK too....I have had suvere diarehha today...and cold.allergies the last 4 days....so everyone can piss off! Laura
and.........also
Own a dog on your own and you'll understand. It's like being a single mother. You can't just pawn your child off on ppl every time something comes up Mel. THINK....Your fucking 30 years old. Why can't you get it. Working late and living alone ...is also an issue! Now...at this rate.....don't expect me to ever come see you. Again, think before you shit out of your mouth Mel. L
and...............again also
Yeah i love you too......but i am extremely pissed now at you and you mother. L
and............then she writes to my father? why?
Hey Tom - Sorry but.....i need you to tell your wife to think first, then talk. Melanie definatly gets that from Monica......that's for sure.. Monica really did it this time. Telling me that she and many others (who does she know that i know...Betty and Mel????) are sick of hearing me say i am struggling with $$....well the truth is I AM and will, until i find a happy medium. I am now thinking of buying a 2 faimily home in the future that will pay for itself. And i will do it all by my self. Yeah....It's hard but i am trying to move forward in my life.....and take mature risks to better my future. KEY....and i am doing it on my own ....a girl no less. Mel gets to live off Sasha and buy alot of un-neccissary thinks because she is living the easy life now. What the heck Tom! I could have told your wife that i am sick and tired of hearing her complain all the time about how tired and depressed she is......but i don't EVER. Now i guess you can tell her i said that. Laura
and......................once again
Between You, your mom, Tetje, Tim, Albert, my mom..& Everyone....you ALL have pretty much Pushed me to my limit. Too much has gone on this month for me....alot of running around i can't take anymore. Everyone is selfish and fucked up! I am maxed out and i can not take any more shit from anyone. It true and pure CAOS!!!! My MSN weekly horoscope warned me of exactly this - Laura 6/20/74...if you want to confirm. Everyone needs to calm the fuck down. ALOT is happening ...ALOT...at work. Major transitions & GREAT ones, but ALOT is happening. I'm DONE & i need to keep focused on work. Mel...Sorry for the PISSED off e-mail but it was to be expected. Laura
and......................
If Sasha has caused this with CRAP that he's planted in your head for some reason.....I will fucking kill him! He has been wonderful to me but why? He fucks you up so badly. He has changed you for the worse by saying mean things to you. What did he or whomever plant in your head. OR was it your Clinically depressed mom? Great...Your depressed...talking about you problems to you depressed mom. Great. Again......CAOS! Laura
and......................
By the way...you came up here 2 times this year for just me. 1 for my b-day...and you still stayed at your parents...& 2 for when i asked you to come because i was upset. All the other times you were here for your family....and some of it was for me. Think about that Mel. You DON'T come up here for just me. L
and..........................
yeah right Mel. Thanks alot....back at you. Most of the time you only hear 1/2 of what is said...only what you want to hear. I came down right?.....and i thought we had a great time. Didn't we do alot? Yeah 7 e-mails.....the one to your dad was copied to you as well. First of all your mom made a comment to me when i went to pick up your dads computer, out of the blue, on "why she thinks i should live in a better cheaper place...and she said it in a mean way." Then she says that shit to me yesterday when she called. About everyone being sick of hearing about my financial problems. Who is everyone Mel? She wouldn't say. Aparently you've been bitching about me to your Mom then. So she put her two sense in. Now wonder i flipped out & sorry i e-mailed you dad...I shouldn't have. I was hoping he would tell your mom to mind her business and let us deal with it. Everyone is depressed and everyone has a situation. That is true. You spring on me when i was there that you were depressed again. AGAIN...if you asked me to come down because you needed me - then the trip would have been specifically for you, but it wasn't - sorry you took it to heart. Remember When you got into a fight with Sasha and your car broke down. I was gonna come get you 2/12 hours away...no doubt & i would have drove you back tool if i had to. Chill out. As for me asking those questions. i didn't think i was gonna get in trouble for asking. You know my situation cause you are my friend. You don't tell me much anyway unless i pry it out of you half the time. How do you expect me to react given the situation. You and your mom saying your sick of me. Hahh????? Of course, i am gonna get Pissed and mother Fuck everyone. It wasn't your moms place. As for jealous.....no fucking way....not of you. I would never want to be in your shoes Mel. yeah, pay bills but small as you said. You have money to blow...I don't extra $$ and haven't for years. and occasionally, when i do treat myself or splurge....i put myself back again. Yes, in another year or so i would like to reorganize my budget and my commission draw to allow me to start saving for a down payment for my own house. Sorry if you do not approve. I think that is a bit more important than anything else right now. As for Tim....as i told you we are not together...we are just friend...and my focus is me & my job. I ultimately need to be single in order to do that. I have been self taught and struggling for my independence for as long as i've known too. Sorry i have supposed friends that don't want to tolerate me. Sorry you don't approve of my love life. Well i don't approve of yours either. Truthfully, i hope you find happiness living with yourself Mel. Thanks alot back at you and good riddens. As you said As for me Whining......truthfully.....after all the running i've been doing funeral etc, etc.. i was planning on being emobile for once that weekend. But i had the opportunity....thanks to Sasha, to get a new computer. So i made the trip. Sorry you don't approve.....& love this part of your E-mail Mel..."DONT CALL ME DONT THINK OF ME I DONT EXSIST TO YOU ANYMORE-"....suit yourself! Laura
then I finally wrote back to her:
well, 7 e-mails in one sitting - i am impressed. you have a lot stored up in there. the one thing you did not do right was think through it first before you acted. in the process of blowing up and going absolutly insane you have brought to light for so many months why you have asked so many questions of "do you pay any bills melanie" (you can say this in a lauria sneekly voice when you read it back to yourself). how much money do you make a month? what is your take home pay? you were setting me up because you are so jellious of something that wasnt there- your own problems. - one thing you left out to yourself and my father - (which i will speak to you in a minute about ) as i told you, i do pay bills here. the other thing- YOU GOT MY FATHER INVOLVED. YOU WERE TOTALLY OVER THE LINE ON THAT ONE. you sent him an e-mail about my mother and me- when you should have addressed us personally- that was a stupid move on your part. and do you actually think my father cares about your little indeaver about your future house idea- what is Tim going to live upstars and All on the lower lever so when you change your mind as often as you do in your life about decisions and growth in your life they will be there for you. now the point i want to make is this, in the letter i sent to you - you never once talked about the real issue of your whinning trip you were on, set aside what you wanted me to believe, the dog the launry...what ever.....you still were not here, and that you only came down for the computer. so - youve showed me very little there. well after the fact that you sent 7 very mean and hurtful e-mails saying Fuck you fuck you, you dont pay your bills, writing my father, and acting like my FUCKING BOYFRIEND back the fuck off lauria, DONT CALL ME DONT THINK OF ME I DONT EXSIST TO YOU ANYMORE-
and..................
Oh and this part of your letter to me: in the process of blowing up and going absolutly insane you have brought to light for so many months why you have asked so mnay questions of "do you pay any bills melanie" (you can say this in a lauria sneekly voice when you read it back to yourself). how much money do you make a month? what is your take home pay? you were setting me up because you are so jellious of something that wasnt there- your own problems. - one thing you left out to yourself and my father - (which i will speak to you in a minute about ) as i told you, i do pay bills here. MONTHS Mel! Over exageration totally. I just asked you that ONCE Mel, ONCE..... while we were walking in Nyack last weekend. I NEVER asked you that before stop making up stories... & Setting you up??? No fucking way...I was just curious how you had so much extra money. Two ppl is always easier then one though Melanie. You said your self you couldn't afford living on your own. How the hell do you think i feel? I AM on my own and drive 3/4s of the time! What the fuck Mel. Sorry you don't wanna hear my shit. What good of a friend ARE you then, hahh? i guess not one at all! Just keep this in mind Melanie.......YOU started this....so now i think you will need to fix it. I'm done with it all too. My focus is me! L
~lets just say i had to block sender by this time....was she really listening to anything?
well, I no longer have a best friend or a second Boyfriend, and believe it or not, I dont feel so bad anymore, in fact I am OK with it.
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